Sometimes, no matter how many hours you sink into a piece, you’ve just gotta say f*** it and start over. I’m super hard on myself and probably set insanely high standards for myself and my work, but honestly this is just part of being an artist for...

Sometimes, no matter how many hours you sink into a piece, you’ve just gotta say f*** it and start over. I’m super hard on myself and probably set insanely high standards for myself and my work, but honestly this is just part of being an artist for me. Now that I’ve been out of school for a few years I’ve often found myself taking drawings/paintings all the way to the end, only to find myself hating them. So I start over. I couldn’t get away with that shit in art school, but now, why the hell not? If my art is going out into the world, I want it to be kick-ass and I want it to represent the best work that I can do. So f***k it. I may have spent hours on that first drawing, but who cares? already feeling really good about the way this second version is coming along 🖤 Stay tuned 💀
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#illustration #darkart #darkartist #horror #horrorart #wip #workinprogress #traditionalart #traditionalartist #learnfromyourmistakes

Here’s another mental health themed #throwbackthursday for you guys. (The last one I did seemed to get a positive response so hopefully you all don’t mind haha). I’ve kept sketchbooks since I was a kid, and I’ve kept every single one. They’re like my...

Here’s another mental health themed #throwbackthursday for you guys. (The last one I did seemed to get a positive response so hopefully you all don’t mind haha). I’ve kept sketchbooks since I was a kid, and I’ve kept every single one. They’re like my journals, they’re parts of me, and they give me a more thorough glimpse into my life at specific points in time. These sketches are all from the same period (summer/fall of 2015). It’s hard for me to look back on these drawings, because they remind me of a very dark part of my life. I was sexually assaulted in May 2015, and it changed my life. I was diagnosed with PTSD a few months later, and I still struggle with it on a daily basis. I am in a much healthier place now, but I still go through days or weeks where the trauma hangs around me like a fog. Looking back on these drawings, I need to remind myself that each drawing repesents a time when I could have hurt myself, and didn’t. Each drawing repesents that decision to make a better life for myself. I am so grateful to be an artist, and to be able to express my thoughts and emotions in a healthy, creative way. To anyone who may also be struggling with PTSD, or any mental illness, finding a healthy and constructive outlet is one of the best things you can do for yourself. Sending you all lots of love 🖤

#illustration #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #ptsd #ptsdawareness #recovery #darkart #darkartist #sketch #sketchbook

May is #mentalhealthawareness month, so for #throwbackthursday I wanted to do something special. Everyone is jumping on the MerMay bandwagon (which I plan on doing also haha), but mental health awareness is something I feel very strongly about and,...

May is #mentalhealthawareness month, so for #throwbackthursday I wanted to do something special. Everyone is jumping on the MerMay bandwagon (which I plan on doing also haha), but mental health awareness is something I feel very strongly about and, starting today, I want to create some mental-health-related posts this month. The artwork you see here is all old stuff I did back in college and high school (pulled right of my DeviantArt, haha). I’ve struggled with mental illness since I was a teenager, and looking back on my older work, it’s so clear to me how much I was suffering. I’m still not perfect, but I like to think I’ve come a long way. I used to hate myself SO much, and I see that in my old work. Art has always been, and still is, my favorite way to cope with emotions or events that are out of my control. I struggled terribly with my depression, anxiety, and self-harm before a number of events pulled me to rock-bottom, and I realized I was at a crossroads: I was either going to kill myself, or get help, and I chose to get help. I just want people out there to know, it’s okay to not be okay, and it’s okay to ask for help 💖

#illustration #artformentalhealth #mentalhealth #mentalillness #selfinjuryawareness #darkart #horrorart #deviantart #throwback

“The Devil has come home.” 🔥 I’m finally finished! So happy I decided to re-work the original sketch. This piece was a challenge for me but I really enjoyed it. I wanted to do something that was recognizable as Carrie, but was also different from...

“The Devil has come home.” 🔥
I’m finally finished! So happy I decided to re-work the original sketch. This piece was a challenge for me but I really enjoyed it. I wanted to do something that was recognizable as Carrie, but was also different from what everyone always does. Hopefully it worked? And just as a side note, I am officially sick of drawing eyeballs.

#illustration #horror #horrorart #horror_sketches #horrormovie #carrie #carriewhite #carrie1976 #stephenking #sissyspacek #darkart #beautifulbizarre #traditionalartist #traditionalart